Is this worth it?
I don’t want to be here anymore
Is that bad to say?
I don’t want to think anymore
What else can I say?
I’m done, I’m finished, I’m tired of looking over my shoulder
I’m scared, I’m broken, I’m tired of trying to be sober
Just let me fade away
Just learn to stay away
No more questions
No more answers
Get to the bottom line
Under my name defined
A soul deprived, someone who was lost
I can be saved, but at what cost?
Washed Ashore
Waves, pull me back in again
Waves, fresh brush against my skin
Waves, take me away from reality
Waves, my life their causality
I will find my slumber, once I make the swim to shore
The tide pulls me under, I tried my best, but I can’t feel the floor
Lost at sea, ocean above and below
A world so free, yet I’m caught in your undertow
No escape from what’s current, your tidal
What swims within a deterrent to your arrival
Yet here I am chasing that simple sensation
Body carried off by such transparent temptations
The further I dive, the less chance that I’ll ever resurface
The closer we are, the more stress questions are you worth this
Waves, pull me back in again
Waves, fresh brush against my skin
Waves, take me away from reality
Waves, my life their causality
Emotions, they come in waves
Memories, they go in waves
Boundless, a blue eternity
Lawless, drown my spirituality
No one to save, no hope of rescue
Nothing but waves to get through
Drag me down, into your depths
Let me drown, in your breath
Pressure your presence enough to make me crumble
Closure deeper I go the more I’ll find myself in trouble
I watch our skylines crash together, so beautiful and scary
Flashes of blue and orange, guess we’re complementary
Still, I remain stranded
My past life rebranded
No life preserver
My purpose to serve her
Or was it to swerve her
Arms flail as we sever
Taken back by her curvature
Closed my eyes from overexposure
Lens flare, little stars obscure our image
Night sky, peaceful end to this scrimmage
Waves, pull me back in again
Waves, fresh brush against my skin
Waves, take me away from reality
Waves, my life their causality
Hey.
Run, drive off, take my life away
It will only get worse if you stay
Panic, freak out, make me cry today
I may look sad but there was no other way
To let you go in May
To leave you alone, I’m alone
I’ve never been this cold
I’ve never been this hurt
Bury me in my regrets, numerous as the dirt
I wish we never got old
I wish things stayed the same
Burn me with your words, I know I’m to blame
It’s my fault I’m alone
It’s my fault your alone
But even so, I still remember the day we fell apart
Before we were alone
Turn back the clock, reset the day
Back before I told you I was okay
Hop off the plane, there’s a delay
At least I hope there is as I pray
Don’t leave me here, hear what I have to say
This is for the better, but I don’t want to be alone
Run, drive off, take my life away
It will only get worse if you stay
Panic, freak out, make me cry today
I may look sad but there was no other way
To let you go in May
To let you go, now I’m alone
It’s no one’s fault, it was mutual
No one’s fault, it was futile
One’s fault, it was habitual
My fault, when I first said hey
Soley Alone
I don’t want to but I have to be in this place
Alone
It’s not like I have a choice it’s just what I am
Alone
Exhausted when I’m wide awake, I just want to sleep
Alone
Broken-hearted why find love when you can stay
Alone
Just walk away, there’s no escape
I’m already dead in my mind
You're still there all of the time
Keeping me stable and alive
But I’m tired of remembering you
So please just leave me alone
I don’t want to but I have to be in this place
Alone
It’s not like I have a choice it’s just what I am
Alone
Exhausted when I’m wide awake, I just want to sleep
Alone
Broken-hearted why find love when you can stay
Alone
Just leave me alone
Please leave me alone
Why’d you leave me alone
I don’t want to be alone
Hollow
Everything quiets down
Nothing can change this now
Anxiety will drown me out
Silence has never been so loud
Let it rush over your skin
Life put on the edge
Just trying to take a look
But then you slip away
Far away from me
Far away from you
Soulless body
Hopeless mind
Reinvent me
Find the time
To forget the way I feel
Sinking beneath the surface
Can’t you see the way I feel
Cause I can’t change it without you
Stuck in place in the corner of the room
From across the floor, I know you're there
From eye to eye, I try to explain it all
But I can’t cause the party’s already over
But I won’t it’s not a problem worth an opener
Late arrival, early departure
Time wasted, but I’m sober
But there’s no going back
No, I can’t ever make it back
Misspoken body
Broken mind
Repent me
Take my life
Make me forget it all
Let it rush over your skin
A life lived on the edge
Just trying to take a look
But then you slip away
I’m Done
I’m done, this is over
I never thought I could feel any lower
This is done, we’re over
Losing my health just to get a little closer
We are done, my life is over
You're the reason I can’t seem to stay sober
Lost my way trying to make you my lover
I fantasize, fantasize about the lies in my head
Daydreams, of you and I
I realize, realize this world looks better painted red
Nightmares, of you and I
Every time that you kill me I wake up to this nightmare again
I just want to daydream, is that so hard to have happen again
To wake up and see you nestled close with a smile
But even in my dreams that hasn’t happened for a while
I’m done, this is over
I never thought I could feel any lower
This is done, we’re over
Losing my health just to get a little closer
We are done, my life is over
You're the reason I can’t seem to stay sober
Lost my way trying to make you my lover
This is too hard for me
I can’t sleep anymore
I can’t think straight
My mental image is blurred
My inhibitions are taking control
Why can’t we be a thing
I want to say these words
But I don’t know what you’ll think
So in my dreams tell me, baby
Do you feel the same
Can we be more than friends
If not then this is our end
Do you feel the same
Can we be more than friends
If not then this is the end
I’m done, this is over
I never thought I could feel any lower
This is done, we’re over
Losing my health just to get a little closer
We are done, my life is over
You're the reason I can’t seem to stay sober
Lost my way trying to make you my lover
But it never began so how could we be over
All I wanted was to love her
All she wanted was a savior
But we’re lost, I think I’m lost
So I lost, yeah I lost
Remembrance.
I don’t know who I am anymore
But I don’t want to remember who I was
I don’t remember who I am anymore
But I want you to remember who I’ll be